Be yourself.

I've found a lot of words: pretend, pretense, acting, imitate. Today I would want to write about being someone that we're really not. Yesterday I was on my friend's 18 birthday. She organized a party in a club. Okay, you may think that's cool, we are teenagers so we like parting and getting drunk. WAIT. I HATE IT. Is it weird, stupid, anti-social? I was thinking about it for a very long time and guess what's my opinion about it. I don't care. I don't care if it's weird, anti-social or stupid, I just don't like it. We all know that everybody is different. What you think, do, like, don't like makes you who you are. I prefer  meeting in a cafe with couple of friends and drink coffee not alcohol while a lot of my friends are getting drunk in a club. So what? Am I supposed to be fake, pretend that I like it and fool myself and everyone else around me? No, of course not. And the point is, your mates should understand and respect your decisions, no matter what. Unfortunately it's not always like that. 

And it's not right to pretend in any different ways too. It's not only about parties, it's about everything in your life. I hate doing something against me because it doesn't make me happy. We shouldn't change ourselves  just because we need to fit in, adapt to the environment. People should accept who we are. If you like having a picnic in the rain with youre imagine friends, do it. Be sure that you're doing what you love and it brings happiness to you, don't look at others. Stop being fake, pretend someone that you're not just for show. It's okay to be different. Even if there's only one little thing that makes you unique or everyone thinks it's weird don't change it. People should stop trying to impress others and worry about someone else's opinion.

           

              

I have a song of the day for you : Don't forget whoy you are ! And I have an info! I'm going to create the second blog where I'm going to write the same posts but in polish, it might be a little bit different because it's easier for me to write in my language. Also I wanted to tell you that I don't need a lot of views or something. This blog recently became a diary to me. I had a lot of notebooks, diaries or other stuff like that but I've never written there much. Now I see that it really helps me and I'm enjoying it.

I'm sorry for all mistakes I'm doing in each post ! ;)

           

Changes.

I won't explain myself again why I haven't been here for months because it's not important. Let's focus on changes! Yeah, everybody needs them and now it's time to change something in my life.  I'm a little bit bored with reality around me, my daily life. And I started thinking about my dreams and goals I want to reach someday. Even though I know I have to work hard for it, because there's nothing for free in this world, I don't do this as best as I can. I know I could do more than I think. Why am I standing in the same place for all the time? People need to evolve. This is the first thing that I want to change, to stop only exist and do something for me and others. 

My biggest dream is to finish school with good grades, go to university I want and then go to South Korea and I know it's not easy, so I want to change my attitude and stop thinking that it's not going to happen. My the most important goal is to work for it as hard as I can. I have to study more, limit the Internet and also change attitude to school and studying. I want to try do this with passion not only because I have to.

Second change I want to make is to get rid of all negative things. Emotions, people, situations, EVERYTHING. I don't want to waste the rest of my life for nonsense and stupid worries that people create for their own wish.

Next is to be stronger. This is something I'm working on from a year and it's not a problem for me to keep going. Run a marathon? Of course, maybe in 10 years but I will keep practicing.

More discipline. More strong will. Less laziness. Less worries. More happiness. More inspirations. More challenges.

I already reached some of this goals but I realised that not as much as I wanted to. So the best what I can do is to give myself some time and be more self-denial. There's more changes to make but I'll keep them for me.

I wanted to inspire you to make changes in your life too and don't be scared that you won't handle it. Be brave and take a step forward - this is my motto for today.